Digging for Gold

This morning I realized that improvements are made only to that which is faulty.

For years I’ve had my inner vision focused on my faults. I have constantly pushed myself to transform into a better person. This is an exhausting road. It is the caged hamster running for its life on the exercise wheel and going nowhere. Sprinting with all his might, until exhausted, he sleeps, finally at peace – until the dawn.

Happy Golden Retriever PuppyThere is a new puppy across the street.

Everyone loves her. Some are wondering about what she’ll be like when she grows up – will she chase my cats, dig up my flowers, tip over my garbage cans? Today, no one cares. She is small, she is cute, she is new, and she is a puppy!
I hold my new baby. She is warm, she is peaceful, she has a glow in her eyes. She can do nothing for me, I must do everything for her. She offers me total peace and joy as she gazes out from her blanket, sleeps in my arms, nurses from my breast. Everyone loves her. Everyone agrees – she is perfect, she is a wonder, and we are so lucky to have her in our midst.

This is how we start, full of Divine glow. We are enough simply by lying in someone’s arms, breathing, gazing, wondering. We are perfect. We are the Gold.

Whatever the reason (I care not to ask anymore), our Gold, Light, Spark, Wonder, Divinity, gets buried with the passing of time. We speak, think big thoughts, and manipulate tools in our hands. At some point in time we are measured, judged and rated by those around us. We learn that we are not enough unless we measure up to someone else’s ruler. Gradually, we learn to hold that ruler in our own hands. Next, we are sent on a journey to measure up, to become as good as the others, and hopefully to surpass them.

We push ourselves to improve our skills, sharpen our mind, be smart, clever, sociable, handsome, beautiful – to improve on what we were given by the “luck of the draw.” With every accomplishment, out comes the ruler – are we good enough yet?

Now, skilled at measuring everyone – our children, pets, parents, spouse, friends, siblings – anyone within our gaze – no one is good enough, especially ourselves. A choice is offered. We can keep our focus on our faults and our ruler, or we can dig for our Gold.

We are larger now – adults. We have a history of intention and action. We have willingly and ignorantly done harm and benefit to ourselves and others. We are no longer only innocent. There is a choice – to remember and seek our original source of Light, Gold, and Divinity, or remain forgetful of this original Perfection and seek a different ruler.

A Resolution

On this day of resolutions, I gather all of my strength for turning inward to remember, find, and live from my original Gold, Light, and Divinity. I resolve to remember the original Perfection of all beings – tiny or large, wrapped in baby blankets or dressed in power suits, friend or foe, you or me.

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Cindy Black

Cindy Black is the Founder of Big Tree School of Natural Healing and the author of Meridian Massage, Pathways to Vitality. She is appreciated for her ability to make the complex accessible, fun, and practical.


  1. […] few years ago I wrote about going inward, to search for my” inner gold” (see, Digging for Gold).  I went full fledged into this search for something “golden,” “good,” “divine,” […]

  2. Traci Dalrymple on January 13, 2010 at 5:31 pm

    Really hit home! Deep, resonates with my inner conscious self…thanks for sharing and bringing it to awareness…

  3. Carol on January 4, 2010 at 8:45 am

    “Digging For Gold” is an amazing reminder for us to move past the ‘ruler’ we tend to carry with us. Your choice or words and the flow of language is beautiful, and makes the reader think deeply about the significance of your message.

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