My Health Care Debate
My mind is foggy, will I laze on the couch or go for a walk?
I am hungry for something sweet, will I grab a candy bar that I believe is not really good for me but a part of me likes, or will I find a piece of fruit that I believe is better for me which I also enjoy?
It’s time for bed, will I brush my teeth and floss, or just brush?
Here I am, being self critical again – chanting a mantra of negativity at myself that I know grows into digestive tension and pain, that leads to a feeling of hopelessness and not caring for myself, that leads to inertia, that leads to fatigue and apathy. My self criticism generates criticism of others and I find myself retreating from those who care about me.
Will I just let that tape keep playing, or will I reach for something different? Will I gather my strength to pierce through the negativity and look for something okay, good, positive, about myself, my life, my future? Knowing that when I put my effort in this direction, I have a better day, I am happier, and I am more apt to make daily choices that I believe benefit my health. When I make this effort, I notice I have more energy, curiosity and creativity. I move in the direction of the call of my Spirit and everything seems to unfold spontaneously and harmoniously as I benefit from synchronistic events.
I come upon a bush of thorns and flowers. Will I unconsciously, habitually reach for the thorns or will I take a moment to notice the details of what has appeared before me, and fill my senses with the blessings of a rose?